Hello I'm Abby. A young Filipina IT student. I love Anime, my friends, and my family.
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              Today was definitely weird. So I went to school for enrolment, I met my friends and proceeded.  It could have turned out smoothly but unfortunately my grades were misplaced. I swear I turned pale as and my blood was rushing so fast that I sweated so hard, I don’t know what to do. My phobia of crowd came back, and my fingers were shaking as I wrote the schedule plan with my hand.

            I’m just glad that buu was there, he escorted me back at my house and helped me searched for it. Unfortunately, nothing was there. So we ended up talking about our relationship;  and I teased him about a lot of stuff. I put on my best fake brave face and asked him about our relationship status, but he said we were just at the MU level. [mutual understanding stage].

Somehow I could feel my eye sockets moist but I held it up till he rode back to his car and never waved back. It was his decision after all, that’s probably the last time I would ask for it again, I’ll just wait till he forgives me.

Ah, I just can’t believe how powerless and miserable I am when I recall what happened earlier.  To think I ran off at school because I’m soo weak to overcome fear of people and the final blow where my ex told me the feelings are just plain mutual can be so fatal. What kind  fuckery is this?! I sometimes wish I was more reliable, more mature or even more responsible. I suck, I can easily crawl back to my shell and somehow I’d wish dad would forgive me for being a shy retarded daughter.

Yes I’m a failure, the society somehow hates me and the only thing that’s been there loyally by my side is my sister. To think I fell so low, so deep that I can now blame every looser day I have to that one above all things. To think I sound like an emotional fuck, I'm breaking so fast………………..

Labels: Loveless

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